Thursday, January 7, 2010

drama update



as promised, my life had turned around once agian in the course of a day... crazy right?? i've decided to like the guy from the begining of the year (let's say... Bob?). i still thinkg "joe" is really hot, but he's not worth it. i have to be serious- it's never going to happen. so i like bob again. we sat together on the bus today- my best friend and i arranged it that way because she and someone else were sitting in front of him so that was my exuse for sitting with him. it was really fun, we listened to my ipod and played games and stuff. and we were pretty close too. he even drew me a whale on the window (it's kinda our little inside joke... sorta). anyway, the last time he drew me one was in the fall when he liked me. at very least, we're back to being close friends like we were before i messed things up. oh, and in science we have lab tables that are right next to each other they look like the photo on top

so the orange seat was open today and he asked "am i sitting here?" and i said "do you want to sit there?" "and he said do you want to talk to me?" and i said "yeah". i think it's progress, not much, but it's there. joe is one of his best friends, thogh, which slightly complicates things. i've told him and my other really close guy friends that i don't really like him anymore, just think he's hot and stuff, so he knows how i feel now. i also said i like someone else now. if he's smart, he's figured out that it's him (again). but he still talks about me thinking joe is hot, which i do. and everyone knows it now, so it's going to be hard getting rid of that (again, just like it was last year). but if nothing happens, like nothing is going to) then it wil eventually die out. on that bus, joe was right behind him so there were a bunch of comments like "oh, do you like bob now??" and "i thought you had the hots for joe"
first of all, to the second, who says stuff like that anymore?? the last time i honestly heard someone say that was 1980 (and i wasn't even born there). and sadly, to the first bob said "nooooo" but it was in his crazy, joking voice so i think it was okay. if he does like me, it was just in self-defense so no one (or me) knows. and if we're just friends thats ok too, because a bunch of people asked us if we were going out in the bgining of the year, too, just because we are really close.
~don't build a wall you can't climb over~

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