birthday wishes

i wanted to take a second to say happy birthday to my mommy, whose birthday is tommorow. mom, i know we fight a lot, but i really love you and wanted to say thanks for everything you do for me, for always standing by me, even when i don't deserve it and for always being there for me. i can't think of anyone else i would want to be my mom. you are the best!!! i really love how our relationship is growing and how nice it is when we are not fighting. i really am trying, and i know i don't always show you how much i love you, but i do. i really do and i'm gonna try to show it more often. i'll try to help out more, i promise. i love you!!

so thats out of the way *sob*. some of you know that my mom and i have some issues with getting along and everything, but i am not completely fair to her. she is an amazing person who really devotes her whole life to her kids. i really just want her to know how amazing she is. and that i really do appreciate her. even if you never read this mom, i love you.

so that's that, if you have any birthday or any other kind of wishes or shoutouts, comment or email me and i can put them up for you.

fitness plan is going pretty good (minus the carbo load i had for dinner when we went out for moms bday- we are having people over tommorow night, so tonight was the "birthday dinner"). i've missed a couple days working out, but i am really hoping to make up for it tommorow, cuz i need to get back on track with my goal of being down three pounds a week. as of yesterday, i was down two, but i think i'm back where i started from not working out and eating so much. but it is a change in mind set, i think, and i really think that since my health is so important now, that i really will be able to make a positive change in my life.

~be what you wanna, don't let anything hold you back~
xoxoxo

progress...

going great so far!!!! thanks for the support!!!
by the way... i am way way way into twitter now, so i feel like i'm on that more than i'm on here:( i know!!! i'm also on the Arianna account more than the Hello Kitty one, but follow both anyways!!
~love you guys!~

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my new healthy lifestyle plan :P

so i have tried so so much to get in shape that it literally seems am impossible task. so today, i came to realize that i can try to get in shape by taking small steps and doing it completely naturally. and by naturally, i simply mean the "old fashioned" way of getting in shape- diet and excersize. for many people, myself included, finding time to work out is a challenge. and especially for those of us in my situation, without a gym membership or a way to get there, we have to rely on what we can do at home. so i am getting rid of everything i have tried before and going back to the basics.
my plan is to get up around an hour earlier every day (which means for me, 4:30ish.... yaaaay!!). when i wake up i am going to be doing yog-esque stretches, some real yoga and some things that i've created by combining yoga poses with stretches and strengthening excersizes. then i'll do some core and strength stuff. i don't plan on doing cardio much before school, and i won't always have time after, but i will try to squeezse it in wheneever possible.
as far as eating goes... i'm not going to officially be on a diet ("diets" make me feel too limited and make me feel bad whenever i eat something not in them), but i will be trying to make smarter choices. fruit vs. the carbs i am normally addicted to, and adding in more organicish foods instead of just eating crap whenever i feel like it. i also think this will work for me personally because this food is less appealing taste-wise to me, so if i tell myself all snacks i eat have to be healthy, i am likely to cut out some of the snacking i do on a daily basis... you following me here??
i am not a professsional so i don't really know that this will work, but i'll keep you updated on how everything goes. i am really just sick of feeling out of control of my body. so i am taking charge and going for it. i'm going back to the basics!!! small steps eventually add up (i'm hoping...) and my goal is to be in the best shape ever by summer, sooner would be good, but i'll really need to commit for that!!

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video update

my vlog is about 90% done uploading asw of right now.... it is taking SOOO long. anyways i just got done filming a new vid so check that out too. i'm hoping to edit it and get that uploading as soon as my other one finishes. thanks for still reading even though i havn't had anyhting interesting for a while. i've been bust with school and family stuff and not wantin to relive my horrible days at school when i get home. i try to forget about how much the rejection of the one who was supposed to be my best friend hurts. if only she could see how each time she ignores me kills me a little inside. if only she seemed to care....

sad sad day

things are still bad with lana. i know i should, but i really do not want to go into the details, because i might just break down. so i'm trying to re publish my vlog vid and filming a new one tonight. got to go but i'll try to post agian soon.

love you

new vid is uploading

i lied. i finished the vid and it's uploading. keep an eye on my channel because it's taking a long time so i don't know when it will actually get up!!



xoxo

home home home

we are home now. i'm editing my vlog from the trip, but it probably won't be up until tommorow at the soonest. i'm so exhausted that i am pretty much just gonna go to bed soon. traveling just makes me so tired. and it was only a two hour car trip. yeah. so i'll keep you updated but my plan as of now for videos is hopefully at least one a week, but it will probably end up that i just film on low homewrok nights and edit whenever i have time. weekends will usually end up being video days. subscribe and keep checking out my channel!!

~don't be afraid of hope~
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